as i was running around the house last night, getting things ready for zoe's second birthday, i stopped and tried to remember exactly what i was doing two years ago... i was so anxious. i was scared. i felt oddly alone.
i remember packing and unpacking my hospital bag. folding her little onesies over and over. rearranging furniture. wondering. pacing. thinking. dreaming. waiting. i had envisioned the moment of her birth for a long time and could not wait to hold her in my arms.
she was born. the most beautiful little cherub. i can still remember the warmth of her tiny body wrapped tightly in her blanket. the quick pace of her little breaths and her tiny sighs. so peaceful she was, that i had to put my ear next to her nose to see if she was breathing. i miss that. but i feel equally happy watching her grow into the little person that goes by the name "z-z".
may 23, 2010
she's still my little cherub. and always will be...
happy birthday, zoe mae.